Ok, so pretty much every time I have quit smoking, I thought that the reason the food tasted so different was because I was pregnant. Anyone who has ever been pregnant can relate to this thinking, smoker or not. All senses are heightened when you are expecting, and I honestly thought that was why food tasted so different. For instance: Salt. NO SALT. It made me sick to my stomach. Funny thing I noticed tonight during my supper: SALT!!! And I mean TONS of salt. Normally, I am a salt lover. I love chips, nuts, anything salty. It seems this may no longer be. The previous diversions to salt weren't because I was pregnant, it was because I wasn't smoking and was actually tasting the food and what was really being put into my mouth. Tonight we just had leftovers. A couple of nights ago, I made tacos. I normally use the taco seasoning packets from the store. The first night we had tacos, they tasted wonderful. And I honestly LOVE leftover tacos. It's like the longer the meat marinades in that seasoning the better..... or so I used to think. I made a simple meat and cheese softshell. I seriously took a huge drink of water with every single bite of the taco and ended up only eating maybe half of the taco. I thought I was going to be violently ill. I threw the rest away and made a salad. Again.... I normally have to put a little extra dressing on my salad so that I can taste it. Not the case tonight. Although the salad was wonderful, I will have to be mindful in the future of how much dressing I am using (Side note: Wish Bone Hazelnut Raspberry Vinegarette is WONDERFUL!!!! MMMMMM!!!!!!).
Ok, so technically, today is my FIRST smoke free day. Granted I haven't gone to bed yet, but I don't even feel the urge to smoke. I gave in last night. It got to be too much for me to handle. So I ended up smoking maybe a total of 5 or 6 last night. However, this morning I woke up and felt like a$$. And I haven't had one since last night at about 10. So far, so good. I am doing it. I vow to not smoke tonight. I won't. If I think I "need" one, I will go for a walk or something. I WILL NOT SMOKE. I AM NO LONGER A SMOKER!!!! A BIG step today: I was in Jeremy's car without any kids, which is usually a green light to light up. I even took the pack with me, thinking if it got too bad I would take a couple drags and snuff it out. I didn't even think about it the whole time I was out and actually even forgot that I had taken them with me. YAY ME!!! :D
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Yay you is right! Woo hoo!!!
Next step. Have Jeremy store cigs somewhere else - maybe in a locked box or something. So you can't even take a pack with you. Get them out of your sight. Having that temptation would suck ass, if you ask me.
Well - I'm going to get back to packing. Took a quick break. Getting the kiddos to bed and then we're loading up the van. It's exhausting! But will be fun - I think.
I'll talk to you soon!
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