Well.... the time has come. The time when my dad and his family need different prayers. No more prayers of recovery and well being, they (why am I saying "they"?.....WE!!) all need prayers of strength and understanding and comfort for Grandma Barb. Her tests were not good in any sense of the word and the fight is now going to be on the downhill slide. Of the two tumors on her adrenal glands, one hasn't done anything, and the other grew. The chemo is doing nothing other than making her very ill. Now we are down to quality, not quantity, of time with her. There will be no more chemo. It honestly won't be too long now. Maybe a few months, which, to some may seem like a lot, but when you are talking about a loved one, it's too little.
Thank you ALL for letting me vent, not only on here, but also into your ears over the phone, in person, etc. Blogging HAS made this just a little easier. I thought I was ready for this news. I knew it was coming. I knew it in my gut and soul, I just wouldn't admit it (Sorry Mel). No more lying until the truth comes out. It IS as bad as I had felt it would be. I can do this. I know I can..... Until I remember what my Daddy looks like when he cries.....
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Oh I'm so sorry. You don't have to be sorry that you hid your feelings. Staying positive is a good thing. I'm very sad for your dad, his siblings, you. And Grandma Barb. Your grandfather is waiting for her though, as hard as that is.
Yuck. I'm so sorry.
Mom told me. I'm so sorry, and even sorrier that I am not there to help. Be strong and enjoy the time you have left.
Life is so short. It doesn'tmatter whether you are 20 or 80 - it is just too short!
I know you will be a good granddaughter and do all you can to make her final days on this earth the best they can be. Just love her and listen.
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