Defeat

I am feeling so defeated right now. My dad just called to tell me that Grandma got some scans results and it just isn't good. The adrenal tumors are unchanged, which isn't good or bad, it just IS. However, there is a new tumor in the upper colon, which can also mean that the beast as we have been calling it is in the lymphnodes. Defeat. Battle lost. But not the war. Not yet. I just wonder. I mean I REALLY wonder... when will our family get some GOOD news?!!?

God is good. He will help us. This is in His hands. His will be done. But..... what exactly is His will? When will we know? Impatience is one of my worst traits. It's getting the best of me today. I am sorry I don't have anything good to say right now. I am just sad. So sad.

Thank you for letting me vent. And, as always, PLEASE pray for Grandma and her kids. My dad is just so down. Hearing your Daddy's voice crack isn't a fun thing.

Also, PLEASE pray for OM's family. They need them too. Please don't forget them when talking to God for miracles.

Again.... thank you.